If This Is The End

from by Alan Dreezer

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This came from a dream I had. In it I’m having a conversation with my Dad after he had passed. I suppose in it he is a ghost although he didn’t feel like one. It actually felt like I was somewhere else with him. I remember trying to explain to him why I didn't visit him as often as I should have in the last year of his life. The lyrics just flowed the next day from there. During the making of the album I was thinking and missing my Dad more and more. I think talking about my father on this album has helped me and is a fitting way to pay tribute to him. It was always going to be the song to close the album the moment I wrote it.


I didn't want to see you fade away
I didn't want to hear you saying
You had nothing new to say
I didn't want to see you being blind
I know that sounds like being cruel
I can't stomach being kind

I could have done more
But i would not change a thing
I knew someone more
I could not bare to think

If this is the end
That wasn't you
If we don't say it
It ain't the truth
If this is the end
I don't want to lie
I just couldn't be there
To say goodbye

I was driving by your house the other day
But you weren't out there waving
Couldn't tell you what I came to say
It's hard to comprehend that you are gone
Can't tell you how that makes me feel
But I don't think that I was wrong

When I close my eyes
You are standing there
Don’t you leave my side
Tell me that you care


from London E12, released July 10, 2018
Written by Alan Dreezer & Elliot Richardson

Produced by Elliot Richardson


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Alan Dreezer Chelmsford, UK

Alan Dreezer is an Electronic Music/Singer-Songwriter from Chelmsford Essex UK. He has until now always collaborated with other musicians or as part of a band away from his passion for SynthPop.His debut album "LONDON E12" is out now. His sophomore album "HEALED" featuring the new single and short film "What You Didn't Say" is due for release in 2020. For more information visit www.alandreezer.com ... more

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